Just Bullshit.

Everyone seems to think addictions are so fricken cool. And none of them are! Following a group for too long makes you mindless. Smoking cigarettes kills you, alcohol makes you stupid, drugs kill you make you stupid and mindless or loss of personality. I hate all of this, school is like my last entry still a stress press and just as I feel like I have a handle on it everyone at home goes nutty and all the sudden theirs just a ton of shit bouncing off the wall. I hate my brother. I wish he would just go to jail already and get rid of some of this stress. It hurts so bad to say that you would really rather just have someone in jail, especially when they are occasionally okay. But he put his hands on my mom today. MY MOM. Who has given up EVERYTHING for that stupid shit. WHAT RIGHT DOES HE HAVE?! My mom gave up her retirement fund for his lawyer fees. She went to visit him all the time when he was in jail. She always forgave him, cried for him, loved him, gave him money, a home. And it seems like the drugs just make him forget everything she's every done. He deserves to go there. For a really really long time. The fact that he's robbing two kids of a father is enough to get rid of him. The fact that he pushed Jessie into her daughter, just seals the fact that he deserves to go. And I am so sick of hearing Jolie call him her dad. A dad is someone who loves you unconditionally who is there to bail you out and teach you what a decent father figure is. Even a shitty dad is better than no dad. And my brother is no dad. He's a ghost in her life that I hope and pray will float through and be replaced by someone who deserves to be called that role. Man I sure hope Jessie's taste in men improve otherwise Jolie and Brandon are going to have a tough go of it.

All of this drama,

and my necklace just broke.

Damn it.

This has been, Just bullshit with,

Dana Jean